Ray LaMontagne has somehow managed to make competing arguments for
himself as both the luckiest and the least fortunate man in show
business. On one hand, his 2004 debut album, Trouble, has proven
to have legs in a way that I don’t think anyone expected back in the
day. Sure, the record was always critically acclaimed, but did anyone
think that the title track was going to be performed multiple times on American Idol?
In the show’s heyday, no less? And that’s without even talking about
those adorable commercials with the dog that can’t find a secure place
to bury his bone. Add “Jolene,” which served as the powerful closing
credits song for Ben Affleck’s 2010 drama The Town, and “Hold You In My Arms,” which landed on at least a couple TV shows, and Trouble has turned out to be a songbook classic in a way that very few other albums from the last decade have.
On the other hand, though, Trouble was such a stellar debut that
LaMontagne has pretty much doomed himself to languish in the purgatory
of the sophomore slump for the rest of time. Not that any of his other
albums have been bad: 2006’s Till The Sun Turns Black took on a darker, more dreamlike atmosphere than its predecessor, while 2008’s Gossip in the Grain was mostly an enjoyable retread of Trouble
aside from “You Are The Best Thing,” the soulful rave-up that began the
collection and hinted at a new direction that never came. As for 2010’s
God Willin’ & The Creek Don’t Rise, it was a pleasant soft
folk-rock album with plenty of enjoyable songs (particularly the last
three), but sounded almost like the kind of a record an aged classic
rocker would release three decades after his glory days. Only four
albums and six years on from Trouble, LaMontagne sounded like he
was ready to spend the rest of his career making riskless albums, and
while the music was fine, that revelation was a bit of a heartbreaker.
All of this makes it that much more surprising that LaMontagne’s fifth full-length studio album, appropriately called Supernova, explodes the expectations most of us have had for the sensitive singer songwriter in virtually every way. Here, finally,
is a departure, a new direction for an artist whose first album will
celebrate its 10th birthday this fall. Instead of continuing along in
the same acoustic folk vibe of his past few albums, Supernova
finds LaMontagne plumbing the depths of 1960s British Invasion-era
psychedelic rock. It’s an interesting change of pace for a guy whose
previous high points came mostly with raw production and sparse,
acoustic guitar accompaniment. This time, the arrangements are lush,
swooning, and all-encompassing things, with LaMontagne’s acoustic strums
often drowned out by snarling, moody electric guitars.
Credit both changes to Black Keys frontman Dan Auerbach, who provides
production and electric guitar on all of these songs. Sometimes,
Auerbach’s contributions are on the subtler side, as with opener
“Lavender,” a foot-tapping groover loaded with distant backing vocals,
elements of vocal percussion, and a persistent kick-drum beat. The peak
of the tune is a guitar solo, slithering and sliding through the layers
of reverb and dusty desert sand, and it’s a welcome change of pace for
LaMontagne’s sound. The song itself is a meandering composition, never
really settling on a core melody, but offering plenty of lovely sounds
throughout, from Auerbach’s solo to the untethered acoustic guitar
chords that strike through the proceedings every once in awhile. The
lyrics and vocals also just generally take a backseat here, though, a
trend that proves to be the rule rather than the exception throughout
the record, and one that more or less derails LaMontagne's sonic new
direction.
Proof of that fact can be found on first single “Airwaves,” an
intriguing piece of lazy folk-pop that uses a whispered refrain rather
than a melodic hook as its lynchpin. The decision is both sultry and
eerie in the context of the song, and it posits “Airwaves” as an
interesting choice of single to introduce this new Ray LaMontagne to the
world. After all, what sold LaMontagne to audiences initially was his
vocal prowess on songs like “Trouble,” or his lyrical grace on
masterworks like “Jolene.” Both elements are subtracted here, but
surprisingly, it’s the latter that has the greater impact on the success
of the song.
Sure, “Airwaves” is pretty much nothing vocally, but it still manages to
be catchy thanks to it’s rhythmic touch. The lyrics, meanwhile, are
naval gazing fare that fall well below what LaMontagne is capable of
writing. You get the feeling instantly that “Airwaves” is meant to be a
SoCal road trip song, with an early verse reading, “Rolling out of east
L.A./Making our way to Santa Fe/Man, sure do look pretty, she said/Feels
so good to get myself out of the city.” The problem is that the city
name-dropping here feels more like a nonsensical Red Hot Chili Peppers
geography lesson (see “Around the World” or “Dani California”) than it
does like a song where the places actually serve the narrative or poetic
meaning. That’s in sharp contrast to “Jolene,” where the wandering
lyrical motifs (“Cocaine flame in my bloodstream/Sold my coat when I hit
Spokane” and “Been so long since I seen your face or felt a part of
this human race/I’ve been living out of this here suitcase for way too
long”) were chilling and evocative because they felt so personal and
specific. On “Airwaves,” it feels like the girl getting out of the city
could be anyone, and that lack of lyrical ballast results in the song –
and the record – losing the gravity that might have somehow tied it to
the human condition.
Ultimately, that’s precisely the problem with Supernova. There’s
nothing here to relate to, or even to latch on to in any way. The album
becomes an exercise in style over substance as it goes, spending all of
its attention on trying to cultivate this psychedelic Beatles-esque
atmosphere, but forgetting that memorable lyrical or melodic moments are
what would make that atmosphere worth something. Everything about the
core songwriting reeks of boilerplate, from the hooks (or lack thereof)
to the song titles themselves: generic, non-specific names like
“Supernova,” “She’s the One,” and “Smashing.” LaMontagne’s weightless,
unmistakable vocals are still here to lift the songs into a higher
place, but they’re a terrible match with Auerbach’s dense, unwieldy, and
overbearing production. A similar tower of studio bullshit derailed the
most recent Black Keys album, though there it was all because of Danger
Mouse. Here, Auerbach seems to be learning all of the wrong production
tenants from his frequent collaborator, and the result is an album whose
production levels would suffocate the songs if there were anything much
to strangle
Instead, Supernova is an album filled with rough sketch song
ideas blown up to near-comical levels of maximalism. It all sounds
pretty enough, but it’s empty and dull and forgettable in the worst
ways. LaMontagne’s last couple albums may not have been terribly
distinctive, but they were at least all enjoyable. Supernova, on the other hand, is a massive, aggressively mediocre bore. I respect LaMontagne for going in a new direction, but if this is what that direction sounds like, then I hope it’s a temporary detour.
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Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Room at the End of the World: Matt Nathanson Live in Grand Rapids, 3/09/12
I bought Some Mad Hope, Matt Nathanson's breakthrough 2007 album, on a class trip in the fall of my junior year of high school. I didn't know much about him or his music, other than that he'd contributed a cover of the James hit "Laid" to the soundtrack of the horrifically bad third American Pie film, but the record had gotten a terrific review from one of the websites I followed heavily at the time, and the opener, "Car Crash," had been a free iTunes single that I'd had in fairly constant rotation in the weeks leading up to the trip. I didn't get to listen until I got home the next night (this being the age of the iPod, I didn't have my good old portable CD player at my disposal), but when I did, I was thrilled with my purchase. Today, Some Mad Hope is one of my favorite records, a killer collection of songs, representing a series of emotional highs and lows for its composer, and building to one of the best back sections of any record that decade. Last year's Modern Love was every bit as good, landing at number eight on my end of the year list and constituting a big part of my summer soundtrack. Before those two records, it had always been said that Nathanson was unable to translate the electricity of his live show into a studio album without losing something in the transfer. Indeed, those earlier records do have the songs (especially Some Mad Hope's predecessor, Beneath These Fireworks), but seemed to be suffocated a bit underneath the slick production. I think he finally figured it out on the last two albums, but beyond those, it's easy to argue 2006's Live at the Point as the best showcase for his talents: an all acoustic setlist that shows off his hilarious stage banter, his palpable rapport with audiences, and his tendency to interpolate bits and pieces of his record collection into his own songs.
All of those things were on clear display last Friday night, from the moment Nathanson took the stage at the sold-out Intersection in Grand Rapids (to the theme of Superman, no less). I've seen Nathanson once before, as the opener for Third Eye Blind at a summer festival back in 2009, but this was the first time I got to see him headline a show, and boy was it a riot. Singer/songwriter (and surprisingly good beat boxer) Rachel Platten opened the show, proving herself the perfect companion to Nathanson in terms of pop hooks, stage presence, and interesting pop covers (though a piano take of Snoop Dogg's "Gin & Juice" was a bit too gimmicky for my taste). Still, Platten played an entertaining set that probably placed her somewhere in the upper echelon of opening acts I've seen (always a pleasant thing to say, since I've seen more than a few trainwrecks), and had me making a note to check out her material.
After taking the stage, Nathanson and his band rocketed into a pair of rockers from Some Mad Hope - "To the Beat of Our Noisy Hearts" and "Gone" - before delving into the record they're actually on tour supporting with the title track off Modern Love. "Run," originally a country-ish duet with Jennifer Nettles of Sugarland fame, offered one of the most memorable instances of Nathanson's stage banter. Nathanson noted that he would be delivering both the male and female verses by himself (a curious choice, since he had a more-than-capable female singer sitting backstage), comparing the album version to "playing scrabble" (which quickly became the night's thinly veiled term for "sex"), and the live version to "a game of solitaire" (hint, hint). As the show was all ages (and since there was at least one very young child in the audience), Nathanson made a laughable attempt to censor his language and the subject material behind the songs (he told brief stories before many of them, often having at least some connection to "playing scrabble"), but it was clear this behavior has become a trademark in Nathanson's shows, and it became a goodhearted running joke of sorts between himself and the audience.
The aforementioned "Laid" provided one of the most enjoyable singalongs of the night, while "Still," which has become a favorite of mine from Some Mad Hope over the years, was a welcome addition to the set. "Detroit Waves" was an obvious tribute to Matt's Michigan surroundings and was elevated by a riveting snippet of U2's "Exit" halfway through. The song, which is one of the darker and more obscure cuts off the band's legendary Joshua Tree album, fit perfectly within Nathanson's own composition and was the first of several terrific little covers to appear in the setlist. That gave way to "Bare" and "Amazing Again," a pair of songs from the older records that were clearly less known amongst the crowd, but no less terrific in execution. "Amazing Again" was particularly notable for featuring best cover moment of the night, in the form of the first verse of "Angels of the Silences" by the Counting Crows. I was hoping this would turn into a more extended cover, but those hopes were cut short as Nathanson returned to the chorus of his own tune a bit too soon for my taste.
Nathanson called "Kiss Quick" his favorite song on Modern Love, something I found a bit surprising, since I felt like the new record generally saw a trade off between higher quality upbeat tracks and less striking slow ones (when compared to Some Mad Hope). The song had some trouble gaining traction in its live setting, and Nathanson seemed to lose the crowd for a few minutes, but he got it back with the song's emotional climax. The catchy riff and the infectious and anthemic chorus of "Car Crash" didn't hurt either. "Crash" has become a live staple in Nathanson's catalog, and for good reason, as it thrived in its live version. An awkward interpolation of Cee-Lo's "Fuck You" hampered the song's effectiveness a bit, but Nathanson redeemed that blunder with a far more fitting tease of Ray LaMontagne's "Jolene," my pick for that songwriter's best work and one of my favorite songs of the last ten years or so. Clearly, Nathanson would be a fun guy to listen to some records with.
Despite a slew of great songs and performances, entertaining moments of crowd banter, and the fun "trainspotting" game to be played with his cover choices, Nathanson saved his aces for the end of the show. The euphoric "Room at the End of the World" was the highlight of Modern Love and one of my four or five favorite songs of last year, and hearing the song's immaculate chorus blaze forth in this environment was every bit as fantastic as I thought it would be. As Nathanson sang that song, I smiled to myself, basking in the moment, but also in the dozens of moments from last summer that it returned me to, and I felt like maybe, despite the bitingly cold temperatures outside that night, summer wasn't so far off: like it was almost in my grasp. "Faster," Love's first single and one of its catchiest numbers (which is saying something for a record that was brimming with irresistible hooks), was a perfect opener in album context, but works almost better in the live one, moved towards the end of the set. Nathanson led the crowd in a synchronized clap that showcased the audience's excellent sense of rhythm (or, in a few cases, lack thereof), before blasting through one of the night's most fun and high energy performances: it was a knock-out. And "All We Are," the lyrically driven closer from Some Mad Hope, provided a gorgeously downbeat and acoustic finale to the main set.
Nathanson's biggest hit, the sugary sweet "Come on Get Higher," also from Some Mad Hope, made its appearance as the penultimate encore number, and encouraged such huge cheers that it was likely a few audience members had come to see that song alone. And it didn't disappoint, proving, much like "Faster," to be one of the most enjoyable singalong songs of the night. Nathanson introduced his band and bid us farewell before retreating from the front of the stage, preparing their final (and their greatest) song of the night. Near-silence filled the venue for a moment as the band took up their instruments one last time. And then, just as I was wondering if we were going to get another song or not, the room exploded into the intro to "Wedding Dress," arguably Nathanson's most emotionally draining and most viscerally moving song to date. The volume indicated that the band may have turned the amps up to 11 for the finale, but the sound was pristine and clear, and by the time the song hit its cigarette-lighter-waving chorus, I was absorbed, belting along at the top of my lungs. Despite the fact that I had pretty much shredded my voice from shouting along with these songs all night, I couldn't help but join in with this one, and it was one of the more powerful moments I've witnessed in concert. "Wedding Dress" is a shattering depiction of a marriage that, for whatever reason, isn't going to work out; indeed, most of Some Mad Hope is about picking up the pieces of broken relationships, even if it doesn't quite seem that way on the surface. I've always loved that song, but I've also thought that there was something missing from the studio version: something about the production or the arrangement feels thin, and the fade-out leaves it feeling unfinished (does the fade-out technique ever work?). That night, though, as the band played their hearts out and left every bit of themselves onstage or ringing out over the crowd, the song was elevated to new heights; hearing Matt sing those lines with a voice that was starting to break from fatigue was nothing short of chilling. And even though I felt beat up, hungover, and vocally dead the next day (all of this was curious, since I hadn't had a single drop of alcohol), that moment and many more made it all more than worth it. Nathanson is a real talent, both as a performer and as an album maker, and I just hope that, this time, he doesn't take four years to make a new album again.
All of those things were on clear display last Friday night, from the moment Nathanson took the stage at the sold-out Intersection in Grand Rapids (to the theme of Superman, no less). I've seen Nathanson once before, as the opener for Third Eye Blind at a summer festival back in 2009, but this was the first time I got to see him headline a show, and boy was it a riot. Singer/songwriter (and surprisingly good beat boxer) Rachel Platten opened the show, proving herself the perfect companion to Nathanson in terms of pop hooks, stage presence, and interesting pop covers (though a piano take of Snoop Dogg's "Gin & Juice" was a bit too gimmicky for my taste). Still, Platten played an entertaining set that probably placed her somewhere in the upper echelon of opening acts I've seen (always a pleasant thing to say, since I've seen more than a few trainwrecks), and had me making a note to check out her material.
After taking the stage, Nathanson and his band rocketed into a pair of rockers from Some Mad Hope - "To the Beat of Our Noisy Hearts" and "Gone" - before delving into the record they're actually on tour supporting with the title track off Modern Love. "Run," originally a country-ish duet with Jennifer Nettles of Sugarland fame, offered one of the most memorable instances of Nathanson's stage banter. Nathanson noted that he would be delivering both the male and female verses by himself (a curious choice, since he had a more-than-capable female singer sitting backstage), comparing the album version to "playing scrabble" (which quickly became the night's thinly veiled term for "sex"), and the live version to "a game of solitaire" (hint, hint). As the show was all ages (and since there was at least one very young child in the audience), Nathanson made a laughable attempt to censor his language and the subject material behind the songs (he told brief stories before many of them, often having at least some connection to "playing scrabble"), but it was clear this behavior has become a trademark in Nathanson's shows, and it became a goodhearted running joke of sorts between himself and the audience.
The aforementioned "Laid" provided one of the most enjoyable singalongs of the night, while "Still," which has become a favorite of mine from Some Mad Hope over the years, was a welcome addition to the set. "Detroit Waves" was an obvious tribute to Matt's Michigan surroundings and was elevated by a riveting snippet of U2's "Exit" halfway through. The song, which is one of the darker and more obscure cuts off the band's legendary Joshua Tree album, fit perfectly within Nathanson's own composition and was the first of several terrific little covers to appear in the setlist. That gave way to "Bare" and "Amazing Again," a pair of songs from the older records that were clearly less known amongst the crowd, but no less terrific in execution. "Amazing Again" was particularly notable for featuring best cover moment of the night, in the form of the first verse of "Angels of the Silences" by the Counting Crows. I was hoping this would turn into a more extended cover, but those hopes were cut short as Nathanson returned to the chorus of his own tune a bit too soon for my taste.
Nathanson called "Kiss Quick" his favorite song on Modern Love, something I found a bit surprising, since I felt like the new record generally saw a trade off between higher quality upbeat tracks and less striking slow ones (when compared to Some Mad Hope). The song had some trouble gaining traction in its live setting, and Nathanson seemed to lose the crowd for a few minutes, but he got it back with the song's emotional climax. The catchy riff and the infectious and anthemic chorus of "Car Crash" didn't hurt either. "Crash" has become a live staple in Nathanson's catalog, and for good reason, as it thrived in its live version. An awkward interpolation of Cee-Lo's "Fuck You" hampered the song's effectiveness a bit, but Nathanson redeemed that blunder with a far more fitting tease of Ray LaMontagne's "Jolene," my pick for that songwriter's best work and one of my favorite songs of the last ten years or so. Clearly, Nathanson would be a fun guy to listen to some records with.
Despite a slew of great songs and performances, entertaining moments of crowd banter, and the fun "trainspotting" game to be played with his cover choices, Nathanson saved his aces for the end of the show. The euphoric "Room at the End of the World" was the highlight of Modern Love and one of my four or five favorite songs of last year, and hearing the song's immaculate chorus blaze forth in this environment was every bit as fantastic as I thought it would be. As Nathanson sang that song, I smiled to myself, basking in the moment, but also in the dozens of moments from last summer that it returned me to, and I felt like maybe, despite the bitingly cold temperatures outside that night, summer wasn't so far off: like it was almost in my grasp. "Faster," Love's first single and one of its catchiest numbers (which is saying something for a record that was brimming with irresistible hooks), was a perfect opener in album context, but works almost better in the live one, moved towards the end of the set. Nathanson led the crowd in a synchronized clap that showcased the audience's excellent sense of rhythm (or, in a few cases, lack thereof), before blasting through one of the night's most fun and high energy performances: it was a knock-out. And "All We Are," the lyrically driven closer from Some Mad Hope, provided a gorgeously downbeat and acoustic finale to the main set.
Nathanson's biggest hit, the sugary sweet "Come on Get Higher," also from Some Mad Hope, made its appearance as the penultimate encore number, and encouraged such huge cheers that it was likely a few audience members had come to see that song alone. And it didn't disappoint, proving, much like "Faster," to be one of the most enjoyable singalong songs of the night. Nathanson introduced his band and bid us farewell before retreating from the front of the stage, preparing their final (and their greatest) song of the night. Near-silence filled the venue for a moment as the band took up their instruments one last time. And then, just as I was wondering if we were going to get another song or not, the room exploded into the intro to "Wedding Dress," arguably Nathanson's most emotionally draining and most viscerally moving song to date. The volume indicated that the band may have turned the amps up to 11 for the finale, but the sound was pristine and clear, and by the time the song hit its cigarette-lighter-waving chorus, I was absorbed, belting along at the top of my lungs. Despite the fact that I had pretty much shredded my voice from shouting along with these songs all night, I couldn't help but join in with this one, and it was one of the more powerful moments I've witnessed in concert. "Wedding Dress" is a shattering depiction of a marriage that, for whatever reason, isn't going to work out; indeed, most of Some Mad Hope is about picking up the pieces of broken relationships, even if it doesn't quite seem that way on the surface. I've always loved that song, but I've also thought that there was something missing from the studio version: something about the production or the arrangement feels thin, and the fade-out leaves it feeling unfinished (does the fade-out technique ever work?). That night, though, as the band played their hearts out and left every bit of themselves onstage or ringing out over the crowd, the song was elevated to new heights; hearing Matt sing those lines with a voice that was starting to break from fatigue was nothing short of chilling. And even though I felt beat up, hungover, and vocally dead the next day (all of this was curious, since I hadn't had a single drop of alcohol), that moment and many more made it all more than worth it. Nathanson is a real talent, both as a performer and as an album maker, and I just hope that, this time, he doesn't take four years to make a new album again.
Setlist
1. To the Beat of Our Noisy Hearts
2. Gone
3. Modern Love
4. Run
5. Queen of (K)nots
6. Laid (James cover)
7. Still
8. Detroit Waves -> Exit (U2 snippet)
9. Bare
10. Amazing Again -> Angels of the Silences (Counting Crows snippet)
11. Kiss Quick
12. Car Crash -> Fuck You/Jolene (Cee Lo and Ray LaMontagne snippets)
13. Room at the End of the World -> (Tributes to Davy Jones and Whitney Houston)
14. Faster
15. All We Are
Encore
16. Come on Get Higher
17. Wedding Dress
Saturday, January 7, 2012
"You gave me the best mixtape I have..."
Love is a Mixtape by Rob Sheffield
Review, reflection and inspiration
"We met on September 17, 1989. We got married on July 13, 1991. We were married for five years and ten months. Renee died on May 11, 1997, very suddenly and unexpectedly, at home with me, of a pulmonary embolism. She was thirty-one. She's buried in Pulaski County, Virginia, on the side of a hill, next to a Wal-Mart.
As soon as Side Two cuts off, right in the middle of a terrible Belly song, I sit there and wait for the final ca-chunka. Then I flip the tape and press play again. The first song is Pavement's 'Shoot the Singer,' which I just heard an hour ago. I have some unfinished business with these tunes. I'm going to be up for awhile. Renee's not done with me yet."
Mixtapes: there’s no easier way to give a piece of yourself
to another person, no simpler way of giving a person a window into your mind,
your heart and your soul than by giving them a collection of songs that are
important to you. And there are so many kinds of mixtapes: the retrospective
soundtracks, lists of songs that were important to you at a very specific
period of your life; the “I want to improve your music taste” tape, where you
give your friend a collection of stuff by your favorite bands, in hopes that
they’ll finally see the light; the “I want you” or “I love you” or the
“break-up” tapes, tapes for every stage of a relationship. When I listen to my
old mixtapes, I feel like I’ve preserved a piece of myself and my life in those
songs, like it’s a time capsule for me to open up and travel back in time with,
to the day I decided that Ray LaMontagne song and that Bruce Springsteen song
would sound perfect back to back. When I listen to the mixtapes from the girl I
love, I feel like she’s enclosed a piece of her heart in those songs, and even
when we’re not together, I can put them on and feel like she’s near me.
Probably the most important mixtape I have is the one she gave me the day I
left for school after our first summer together, the summer we fell in
love (even if we hadn’t said the words yet). Listening to the songs she put on
that mix, the happy, the sad, the lovelorn, the distant, the nostalgic, it felt
like a new beginning: I was confused and sad and broken, and felt like I’d
just driven 150 miles
away from the person I most wanted to be with, but that mix turned my eyes
toward the future. Hell, when I listened to that mixtape, I knew we were
going to be together for a long, long time.
Rob Sheffield knows all of this: he’s made every type of
mixtape that I listed above (along with many others), and he’s heard thousands
of songs become the soundtrack of his life, both as the subjects of his
mixtapes and the mixtapes his late-wife Renee made for him. Those mixtapes are
the basis for the story that unfolds in Sheffield’s 2007
memoir, Love is a Mixtape. Throughout the book, Sheffield chronicles his life
through stories about his two great loves: music and Renee, from his early
mixtaping days for the middle school dance (I've got stories of my own in that genre), to making his first mixtape for the
woman who would become his wife, to soundtracking their final hours together,
before she suddenly collapsed one Sunday afternoon and died in his arms; no warning, no chance to say goodbye.
As a book, Love is a Mixtape is over far too quickly, and
once I reached the final page, a part of me just wanted to hit rewind, to loop
the thing over and over again, or to just have it keep going, but just like
Renee and Rob’s relationship, just like Renee’s life, it’s over far too soon.
Sheffield is a terrific writer: as a columnist for Rolling Stone, he’s chronicled
his adoration for the kind of pop music many of us (myself included) have
written off time and time again, and he does that in this book, but he also
gives us a window into his life, gives us a piece of his heart, like he’s mixed
us the best tape of all. Sheffield’s endlessly sarcastic, self-deprecating wit
lends a joyful humor to many parts of the book, from his awkward youth, to his
perhaps even more awkward college days, all the way to the strange, euphoric
taste of first love and then later, the ups and downs of married life: the
great moments spent just driving around with his wife and singing along to
songs on the radio, or of the whirlwind social life she brought him into, this
shy guy who would have felt so much more at home with his records (I can
definitely identify with that one), or of the stupid little fights they used to
have, all of which he lost (the girl always wins…).
But Sheffield is every bit as good at painting the tragedy:
the numbing shock of her “here-one-minute, gone-the-next” passing; the futility
of trying to move on into a life without her; his endless nights of just
sitting in the backyard, listening to mixtapes and trying to find her again in
the songs; the overwhelming displays of human kindness he found himself surrounded
by in the months after her death; the emptiness of things like work and bills and
cooking, and how pointless they seemed to him when she was gone. The months
spent eating out at restaurants, and the unbearable sadness in his prose as he
describes his search for a place where he can just be alone, uninhibited by the
stares of others or by the small talk of friends or acquaintances, and especially
a place where the memories of the woman who was stolen from him far to soon
won’t haunt his every thought. This part of the book, though it follows a
hundred solid pages of smiles, laughs and happiness, is so crushingly sad, so painfully
haunting, that it was hard to read at times, but it’s also completely honest,
raw and powerful, and it makes the book something I don’t think I will ever
forget. Some of my favorite songs of all time are songs that I find so powerful
because I can feel the artist’s emotion in every word and every note, and that
holds true for Sheffield’s book as well.
The mixtape really is a mythical creation: it can be such a
simple thing, but when thought and love is poured into it, it becomes something
so much more. I always used to think that I would never be happy unless the girl I fell in love with had great taste in music. I don’t know if that seems shallow or
anything, but considering that music is one of the most important things on the
planet to me, I really can’t imagine falling for someone that I didn’t feel
musically compatible with, because that would probably hint at some other
compatibility issues as well. One of my first favorite songs was Butch Walker’s
“Mixtape*,” and it put this fantasy in my head of finding the perfect girl to
make the perfect mixtape for. Luckily, I found a girl who is all of that, and
even though love is, unlike Sheffield says here, so much
more than just a mixtape, I honestly think the songs I’ve traded with my
girlfriend have added a facet to our relationship that I wouldn’t give up for
anything. Those songs have provided soundtrack for countless important moments
in our relationship, expressed things we couldn’t quite say in words and,
ultimately, they have brought us closer together. But like Sheffield discusses
throughout the book, music builds bridges and bonds between people in so many
ways, the obvious and the subtle, and just like him, it never ceases to amaze
me just how many ways that can happen: I hope it never does.
*Later, by some strange coincidence, Jimmy Eat World and
Jack’s Mannequin would both release songs of alarmingly similar titles. This
means that three of my five all time favorite artists have written songs on the
subject. There’s only one other song about mixtapes in my library. Now Bruce
just needs to write one and I’ll have a conspiracy theory.
My favorite mixtape my girlfriend ever made for me,
just for reference:
- Ian Broudie – “Song For You”
- Joshua Radin – “I’d Rather Be With You”
- Gin Blossoms – “Hey Jealousy”
- Hootie & the Blowfish – “Only Wanna be With You”
- Ingrid Michaelson – “You & I”
- David Ford – “Song For the Road”
- Iron & Wine – “My Lady’s House”
- Amos Lee – “Keep it Loose, Keep it Tight”
- Aimee Mann – “Save Me”
- The Wallflowers – “Closer to You”
- The Weepies – “Gotta Have You”
- Calexico and Iron & Wine – “16, Maybe Less”
- Bell X1 – “Eve, the Apple of My Eye”
- Grizzly Bear – “Slow Life”
- Damien Rice – “Grey Room”
- Ben Harper – “Waiting For You”
- Alexi Murdoch – “Wait”
- Switchfoot – “You”
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